lets talk deep =)



currently texting hazman,i told him i want a hug.haha.he thought something was wrong so he asked "what's wrong? You can talk to me about anything.." haha,so sweet of him. so i told him,nothing's wrong.. I just wanna have a talk with someone,serious talk =) so then i said something probably stupid,haha.



IM BORED OF LIFE,I WANT SOMETHING NEW =D



can i have it please? i mean.. going through the same stuff over and over again.. i want to explore a whole new world. something i dont know about,dont ask for examples. its supposed to be a suprise,right?? haha. i think im the type of person who keeps on asking or wanting for something thats almost impossible,or maybe IMPOSSIBLE xp i cant explain much,i think pms is part of this XD haha,i've been feeling tired lately.. didnt do anything much,but err i think im stressed out..



oh oh hazman just replied..
"What would i do if i'm fatin.."



HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.silly you xp

he's been a good friend lately,we've known each other since primary six but we just got to know each other last 2 years xp funny how life can be. back to me XD haha,i think im a boring person.. i cant open up to certain people at certain moments =) its natural. hee~ i love studies but the teacher and the pressures on the shoulders are making it the other way around.. apa nii~ teachers are supposed to make us want to studies but i think its the other way around. oh maybe,teacher should take psychology classes so they can use it on students!! =D that'll be great. weheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!! i say crappry stuffs when i talk deep,less when im talking to a real person xp



i'll sambung later.. or nextime XD



.KASIH.

get over it

SI ADEK LEAVING =/
si fatin sad..
kaka nina pun ='/

i'll blog some other time when im feeling better..

. KASIH.

a walk to remember

I watched A WALK TO REMEMBER LAGI =D

and i cried =/ again xp haha. i can cry for cerita hindustan too kali ah XD

oh wells,the point is.. I like the movie made me feel =D ITS REMINDS ME THAT WAITING FOR THE BEST THING IS WORTH IT ALL. and i think jamie's very COOL in the movie =) cooler than the so-called-cool people XD she dont care what people say about her. about how people teased her sweater. ONE SWEATER PEOPLE . so?? if i were her place,i'd say.. i have this sweater and you dont,booooooooooooooooooooooooooooo XD haha,crap. and oh. haha,i find it very sexy when jamie asked landon to promise not to fall in love with her XD

haha . she saw it coming sudah tuu =D how cool is that? xp im lame now,forgive me. haha. i like the way she balas-ed balik what he made her feel. then both of them fell in love with each other. because they got to know each other X) not because of how they are. its very hard to find that in people nowadays,dont you think?

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lets see. from my point of view lah XD im being very biased now. haha. but its not something new anyway =) people get attracted for how they look first. no arguments there. but if they get to know them,found out that they're not that great but still going for them. i call that stupid. i mean if you like them cematu bulih lah. but liking them just for the fucking and hot bod to show off to everyone is NO NO NO. i dont even know why guys would just go fuck their girls with reasons to prove their love. THATS TOTAL SHIT OF CRAP . i swear a lot lately XD sorry people . but true. i went through that before and managed to get out of that. and i met few people who went through that too. when they're already 'involved' thats hard,TOO HARD. so people stand up for yourself XD haha.

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Funny how i came to notice i keep on talking about my point of view saja. instead of my STORY xp i get easily distracted =D

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i like blogs now XD 'someone' i can talk to when everybody's not around =D haha

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oh lets go back to landon. thats his name roite? xp i forgot lah,haha. oh well. im just glad that jamie managed to bring the REAL him as landon himself =D no doing things he dont feel like doing anymore =D just being honest and protective,aww~ haha. shadap XD he fell for jamie being jamie the way she was,is and is-going-to-be XD yes crap. haha. my opinion saja. haha. oh why cant guys be like that? guys usually find girls unattractive when they dont look good. whats inside is whats important here. no?? =/ pfft~ typical .

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oh today =D im happy,very happy =D pasal im thinking more clearly now =D i like how it feels. hehs. LOVE IT. oh,i made people listen to me saja lately. i sorry for my selfishness there =/ sorry. but im glad you guys did listen tho. ILY

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oh i listen to too much mandy moore today XD haha,pasal the movie XD haha. stupid cupid's not that bad XD haha,enough said. goodnight =)

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i think i

first photo blog XD

2nd blog for today =) jobless i'd say.. haha.

umm,listening to byul's i think i.. aww~ it sweet xp

love in denial much~ haha

I refused to believe that it could be so

There's no way that i'm in love with you

I lied to myself that it's just a petty jealousy

That i must be feeling lonely

but i cannot hide it anymore

I think i love you

But it must be so

cause i miss you

Without you,I cannot do anything

And you are always on my mind

So seeing this

it must be

I was unaware

But now i can see that your presence have delved deeply into my heart

We are not meant for each other

and being friends is the best thing for us

There isn't a single thing we have in common

So i claimed there's no way we can be lovers

But i don't want to make excuses anymore

Why didn't i know that it was you

Why couldn't i see it when it was right in front of me

It was beside me all along

But only now can i see love

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the translation of it =)

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and here "because im a girl"

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I just can't understand the ways

Of all the men and their mistakes

You give them all your heart

And then they rip it all away

You told me how much you loved me

And how our love was meant to be

And I believed in you

I thought that you would set me free

You should've just told me the truth

That I wasn't the girl for you

Still, I didn't have a clue

So my heart depended on you

Although I'll say I hate you now

Though I'll shout and curse you out

I'll always have love for you

Because I am a girl

Been told a man will leave you cold

Get sick of you and bored

I know that it's no lie

I gave my all, still I just cry

Never again will I be fooled

To give my all when nothing's true

I won't be played again

But I will fall in love again

I loved you so

Now you leave me in the cold

How could this be

I thought that you'd only love me

Into the night

I will pray that you're alright

You hurt me soI just can't let you go

You took advantage of my willingness

To do anything for love

Now I'm the only one in pain

Will you please take it all away

Never thought being born a girl

How I can love you and be burned

And now I will build a wall

To never get torn again

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IM NOT A FAN OF PINK OKIES?? XD

they suit love songs better,no?? =)

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i think i

early =)

oh 5.48 am.. thats when mom woke me up today =)

haha,kana suruh help her in the kitchen.. and oh i did XD

im proud peopleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee X) haha. my hand smells like nanas now,that i no like xp mom was annoying tadi.. mula mula she said one.. then another one lagi.. then another one.. and another one till i cant count them no more =/ just annoying dont you think? pfft~ sabar fatin,i want to deserve something good later GOOD =) buat baik,dapat baik.. nenek said so XD haha

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haha,listening to superduperman by toybox XD

haha,so funny.. somehow sweet in how the 'SUPERSUPERMAN' is her hero.. haha,he's got sexy x-ray eyes and his legs are sexy HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA,can i TOUCH your tinggeling?? haha XD oh curves,pfft~ i feel fat people =s yes yes,my parut buncit.. apa ni.. haha,oh oh.. this week has been nice,quite okay.. =) and i've been happy eventhough exam's coming soon XD haha,exam EXAM exam,i'll start studying soon pasal my practicals suck X) oh oh,i miss one tree hills xp

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ONE TREE HILL

oh,i love.. just how lucas happen to be that GUY in town.. and how nathan and HALEY fell in love,eventhough haley went to pursue her singing career in the end.. their love story is what i call MAGIC. THE MAGIC THAT KEEPS THE STARS APART =) deep much,haha.. and LAME. i thought haley can do both tho. if nathan stand by her side no matter what. nathan's too jealous to have faith in her. OH I FORGOT SHE KISSED ANOTHER GUY. haha,dont blame her. they got married young. they're still growing up =) haha. I AM TOO XD oh enough said already =)

oh wait,and how brooke grow up sudah =) and peyton pun jumpa what she wants =)

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THINK DEEP

thats what i've been doing lately =D haha. you have to move on sometime. dont keep holding on to things that arent strong enough to hold you. why keep on holding? because i believe in hope and faith =D i really do. people say its not worth it. but i still want to. why? because im naive XD haha

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" oh someone got disconnected.

dont think IA will be bothered to sign in again.

or text me to say IA got dc and all the sorry stuffs.

no one does XD but IA used to do that XD.

oh ignore this. "

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IA hates orange,im using it XD

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sometimes i feel like banging my head on the wall. just to wake myself up. and stop dreaming XD haha. world too good to be true. i've been asking myself why im still holding on to it. why fatin whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ haha,i know it'll just make me feel worse xp my HEART just wont let go i guess. of all the GOOD MEMORIES. i know. im moving on tho,dont get me wrong =D im still having fun. with hope that i'd discover something more so it'll be worth it all. THESE stuffs are not worth it. oh dont make me start my questions why AGAIN XD haha.

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oh LOST BY MICHAEL BUBLE is gooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooood =D

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oh i need a wake up call XD

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~ I REMEMBER SOMETHING.

haha,i was emo deep deep few weeks back. talked to the FRIENDS. lovely i'd say =) i told sabrina, "how i wish i can jus tell him YOU'RE BREAKING MY HEART" .haha

DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP AH.

haha,okay IM MOVING ON. I'LL TRY NOT TO LOOK BACK. I DESERVE MORE THAN THESE SHIT.

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BECAUSE IM TOO GOOD YOU SAID,HAHA. TAKE THAT FUCKING SHIT BACK.

I DONT NEED IT IN MY POCKET.

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i have silly thoughts because i have fantasies. FANTASIES that shouldnt exist XD haha

they should be REAL XD

im taking like as it is now =)

let me grow up and make MY OWN mistakes so i'll learn something GOOD

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EH YOU,YES PEOPLE DO HATE YOU. I THINK YOU DESERVE IT.

HAHA. HOWS THAT.

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in few hours later i might feel like taking this back XD

so yeah,whatever XD haha

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oh si fatin bukan mental. she's thinking deep saja =D

oh remember, I AM LAME.

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I BLAME YOU.

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early =)